A Moment of Weakness
Posted by: homelessgirl on: September 7, 2008
These are a new series of posts that I will be doing from time to time.
Because I love to write and I bought a notebook about a year ago I have been writing down thoughts, ideas any thing really. And whenever I felt at my lowest point at a moment of weakness and just didn’t think I could go on I would write. Sometimes with tears on the page and sometimes with such ferocious writing you could not read. I hope you enjoy these as they mean a lot and are very personal. Thank you again.
- Homeless Girl
23. 09. 07 – A moment of weakness
” As I watch people walk past me carrying their shopping bags and hold their head highs in content, contentment which they find in various ways. I sometimes think to myself: I wish I was someone else, somewhere else. That every memory of who I am, every feeling, emotion and pain would leave me. That I could go for a while I could be free.
But I cannot, I have no option for giving up. I want to fail but I cannot, I want to die but I have nothing to kill me because it would be too easy to leave and no one would remember me.”
6 Responses to "A Moment of Weakness"
September 7, 2008 at 6:31 pm
That’s one fo those concepts where you have to stop wanting to get what you want.
Like the more you pine after happiness, the further away from being happy you are.
So the only way to be happy, is to stop longing for it.
If only it was that simple.
Lola x
September 7, 2008 at 6:53 pm
There is nothing complicated about it. You choose what you focus on. If you focus on thoughts that help you, you will feel stronger.
September 8, 2008 at 7:00 pm
well you know..it’s interesting notice..coz you konw.. i have b-day 23 sept. and i sometimes think about other people…like what are they doing in particular moments of time like my b-day..and hmm it’s rather intersting that in time when i got fun someone had kinda upsetting thoughts.. moments of weakness are not deleteable in our life and it’s important sometimes understand who you are.. so go on with your thoughts! i like the way you think.. but imagine you were the other human in the other place – you will never findout this thoughts you worte at 23 september, year 2007.
September 8, 2008 at 9:50 pm
you know I didn’t really know what to expect when I wrote this post, and I’m glad I took that risk your feedback is awesome. And I’m surprised that I already have comments and the blog is less than a week old.
Anyway you know, i don’t want to do any shameless self promotion but tell others about it e.t.c cos i really love reading comments and people’s reactions. It makes the work worthwhile.
Thanks again xxxx
September 8, 2008 at 10:37 pm
i can’t promote you just coz i’m alone here..and at all..so i can bring you only my comments and reactions…anyway i will try.
thanks you are writing.
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September 7, 2008 at 6:01 pm
The desire to disappear, to quit being you, is compelling and alarming at the same time. Your lack of contentment may come from the fact that you are a thinker. It is difficult to take responsibility for what you think about, and yet that is the only way to contentment.