Listening to: Surrender, Billy Talent

By WalnutCreekAlpacas

I tend not to talk about myself so much because I don’t want to be so self obsessed but I realize that this is a blog about me, so I have to do that. And I have not been very faithful to posting, I do sometimes get lazy and passive but………..

There has definitely been a change in me in the last few months in terms of my behavior.

I would crave talking to my friends on facebook and just having an interaction with people. But now it’s like I don’t care anymore.

I don’t care what people have to say because  most of it doesn’t interest me, I don’t know if it’s to do with youth but so many people I know are just obsessed with themselves and have no plan or agenda in life.

I get so annoyed when others have opportunities thrown to them and they waste it, and I get even more annoyed when they claim to be “depressed” that word gets thrown around so much.

I don’t really know what to talk about because all they ask me are questions that I have no answer to.

Anyway I don’t want to rant too much.

I’m at a critical point in life right now and on top of this my family life seems to be getting out of control . I’ve lost the last 3 years of my life and I’m still in a 2005 mindset, the moment before the crap hit the fan.  My dad and brothers have had to cope with this situation as well and frankly they don’t really understand. I feel forgotten by them and they have all moved on.

My dad put an ultimatum on me that if by the end of the month I don’t enroll at uni he isn’t going to talk to me anymore. I don’t really know what to make of that.

My eldest brother  is besotted with his girlfriend and wants to get married soon and doesn’t see any point in waiting for my mum and I to attend the wedding.

So that’s pretty much what’s happening at that the moment. I desperately want a good Christmas. And I’m trusting God for that.

But don’t worry about me, I’m not weak. And at this toughest time is where I am at my strongest.

This is just what happens and I know, that I know, that I know I will make it.

Thanks for reading

-Homeless Girl

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