By Patrick Smith Photography

Now and then every once in a while I get a feeling in the back of my head that makes me think. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe all of this is just My fault and a direct result of my own actions, that I should have done something: sold the house, rented an apartment do this do that.  I’ve never denied that there are somethings I could have done to  change the outcome of the situation but as they always say hindsight is perfect. When I look back there is no way I could have averted this situation because I always believed that things would get better.

I wonder sometimes if I am insane for believing in God and I get these thoughts that are so poisonous along the lines of ( how can you possible think a God exists let a lone loves you or wants to help you)

So I question whether if this is really happening to me, if my whole point of view is warped that I can’t even see what has really happened.

I don’t know.

But I always find myself going back to this assurance. No matter what has happened or what I’ve been through I’m still here and I’m still alive. It is my job to keep on going because the past has happened.
Thanks for reading and putting up with my ramblings.

Homeless Girl
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