I Sometimes Question My Own Sanity
Posted by: homelessgirl on: June 12, 2009
By Patrick Smith Photography
Now and then every once in a while I get a feeling in the back of my head that makes me think. Maybe I’m insane. Maybe all of this is just My fault and a direct result of my own actions, that I should have done something: sold the house, rented an apartment do this do that. I’ve never denied that there are somethings I could have done to change the outcome of the situation but as they always say hindsight is perfect. When I look back there is no way I could have averted this situation because I always believed that things would get better.
I wonder sometimes if I am insane for believing in God and I get these thoughts that are so poisonous along the lines of ( how can you possible think a God exists let a lone loves you or wants to help you)
So I question whether if this is really happening to me, if my whole point of view is warped that I can’t even see what has really happened.
I don’t know.
But I always find myself going back to this assurance. No matter what has happened or what I’ve been through I’m still here and I’m still alive. It is my job to keep on going because the past has happened.
Thanks for reading and putting up with my ramblings.
Homeless Girl
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3 Responses to "I Sometimes Question My Own Sanity"
June 12, 2009 at 4:47 pm
Hang in there, Girl. I agree with the comments above. You have been doing community journalism and encouraging others. We don’t know why God allows bad situations but we do no that when he brings you out people will see his glory. Your miracle is comming
June 13, 2009 at 5:25 pm
Syinly. I truly believe my miracle is coming.
Community journalism- ha I’ve never heard it like that, thanks.
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- Mandy: hey, i think that this is a problem alll of us have struggled with from sometime or another. i would like to say htat sometimes God does things or rea
- syinly: HG, I have not heard from you for a while. I know you are twitter and I probably should DM you. I know this time of year is not easy on the homeless
- Jori: For the first Paragraph of this article..: God takes his children for a reason.. No one is promised tommarrow. Ever heard that? It means.. you neve
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June 12, 2009 at 2:22 pm
you are not insane. you are an observer, a thinker. having these traits are already grace of GOD. God is real – never doubt that. keep on believing that things will get better, and never regret the decision you have made. things happen for a reason, we just don’t know it at that time.